1. |
Pretty
02:33
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I'm pretty tired,
no I'm exhausted,
from running in a race I'll
never win.
I'm pretty indifferent
oh, the apathy.
It is what it is,
and it's slowly killing me.
I'm pretty nervous,
no I'm petrified.
That I'm stuck inside this rut
for the rest of my life.
Will I run in circles or just
run and hide?
From the dreams I'm too afraid of,
passing me by.
I'm pretty lost
yes I've gone astray
from the things I once
believed in
God how'd I get this way?
I'm pretty miserable,
and so are you.
But, we'll lie and say we're fine
'cause it's the polite thing to do.
I'm pretty scare
no, I'm terrified.
That this is it there's nothing more
to this pretty little life.
I'll graduate and find a job until it
turns part time.
Then I'll crank out pretty babies,
be a pretty little wife.
No, no, no, no.
I don't want to be pretty anymore.
I don't want to be pretty anymore.
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2. |
Calm Down
03:48
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Can't seem to shake the feeling
that everything falls on me
can't tell if I'm being selfish
or acting my age...
When it comes down to it
I guess it's all the same
Chorus:
You don't have to have it figured out
You don't have to have it figured out
You don't have to have it figured out
Right now
Mom says one step at a time,
but what if I've taken a couple blind?
Will I wake up and realize
five years have gone by
and I still don't know what I want?
Chorus
God says he's got a plan,
but some days I don't find that assuring
Yet I know, believing him is better than me
just worrying
Chorus
You will never have it figured out
You will never have it figured out
You will never have it figured out
Calm down.
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3. |
Exit Interview
03:22
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My first kiss was in an alley
when I was 16
outside his place
so my parents wouldn't see
and after it happened
Kelsey came to get me
I was mad that it didn't feel
like movies I'd seen.
A couple months later
spring break at the beach.
Got slipped some tongue,
by a guy who barely knew me.
A failed attempt at not taking
love seriously,
then I swore I wouldn't waste time
with guys who didn't like me.
Five years flew by,
you broke the streak,
but after all this time I guess
my judgement got weak.
We used to talk every day,
before your lips touched mine,
and now I have to wait a week
before I even get a reply.
You blame it on a funk
well I just blame me.
For not being good at hiding my feelings.
I wanna believe you but you never follow through,
you only ask what I'm doing when it's convenient for you.
I wish I was cool enough to say I don't care,
but when we rolled out your bed,
I left a part of me there.
and you don't seem to care...
Can I get an exit interview?
So I know exactly what it was I did that lost you.
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4. |
Up in the Air
06:03
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These days I can't seem to
get into the car without
wanting to burst into tears.
It's the only place I'm alone
long enough to remember
that I don't know
where I'll live this time next year.
So I crank up sad songs
to try and ease my mind,
I find my thoughts get less aggressive
as my dial turns right.
But when the music ends,
I'm left more afraid that
no matter what I do
I'll think I've made a mistake.
Chorus:
It's all up in the air now,
and there's nothing I can do but
watch it all come down.
No use in being scared now,
'cause no matter how it lands
I'm gonna have to be around.
These days I can't seem to
step into a bar without
wishing that you were near.
I can't tell if I miss you,
if I'm lonely, or just bored,
but regardless, you're convenient
aren't you dear?
I used to think love was just a guarantee.
If I kept weight off and smiled,
he'd pay attention to me.
But that's not love at all,
and it just hurts like hell.
I'll never find real love
until I choose to love myself.
Chorus
Me and you we're sitting here
at my favorite bar and
we're both trying to hold back our tears.
You can't sleep and I don't eat,
and I know I shouldn't laugh,
but we used to swear we'd never
let ourselves get here.
Instead of bad advice,
you just grabbed my hand.
Didn't need poorly strung words
to know you understand.
And though the rest from here
is left to the unknown,
all that matters is I don't have to be alone.
I guess all we can do is take it day by day
'cause in honesty that's all we really have.
So every time I'm lucky enough to wake up
I'll take a breath and remind myself that...
It's all up in the air now.
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